Sunday, December 21, 2008

Step Over ..



Today's Afternoon ,, It was a hazy sky with a lot of clouds ..

The Sun was fading .. I can see it in between trying to come out ..

But It Couldn't .. Something was blocking it ..

While i was walking down the street .. where i work ,, i saw a poster ..

It Said " I will step over My heart " .. Hm mm , Interesting .. I said

Holding in my hand " War Stories " For BBC's Jeremy Bowen .. I Kept Walking ..





I was reading the 2nd chapter in the book .. Titled " Crazy " .. So was I ..

I'd rather break my own heart .. Once , Twice .. and even Endless Number of times ..

But not Breaking Anyone's Heart .. Even If they were Evil .. or .. Good ..

In Animation , we have " Instances " .. which are Original Copies of work we use as backup ..

Where In Real Life .. you can't do that .. Video And Animation Screwed My Life ..



Saturday, December 20, 2008

Get Deep ..

A Friend of mine , was talking about Soul Deepness ..

Get Deep .. That's My hear Call these Days ..

Trying to look into the choices i can choose from ..

Scared to believe my heart .. Trying to Freeze it ..

But it won't .. it won't Allow me .. it will push me further ..

At the same time thinking of the post period to come ..

Standing Here at this point , Afraid to make a move ..

Wondering whether it could happen or not ??

And Here i am .. thinking and asking ..

Why do we have to be afraid before happiness ?

What should i do ??

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Last Night ..




Last Night , i was sleeping by my right side ,, on my pillow .. lonely as usual ..

But suddenly .. i discovered my heart was beating more than its average rate ..

i found i was crying too ..!! .. i looked to the roof ,, though the room was dark ..

i tried switching sides , pillows ,even blankets ..still my heart was beating too fast ..



then at a spark of scenes .. i found my heart was trying to send me a message ..

it's giving up to all my trials .. and it can't hold anymore ..

Last Night .. My heart told me : "Find me a solution " ...


Monday, November 03, 2008

My Seagull is back ..



It's Been a while ..

I Went around West africa for sometime .. doing Journalism work ..

So , It's been since the last time that i believe a lot of things inside me changed ..

Both in my career building .. and my brain development : )

I went to Nigeria , Benin & Togo .. It was quite a fascinating experience

Personally , I do believe a lot of thing inside me has changed since that time ..

My understanding of things have changed .. Maybe yet to the climax .. but it did ..

Been More Matured to think about life now .. not easily bent like before ..

More yet to come .. Some Tasks await Decision Making ..

Time will tell about it ..

Will write more about these things later ..

Saturday, July 05, 2008

They Say ..



At Fajr , Omar Faruk Was Singing " Yunnus " 

Praising The Almighty Allah ,, 

Taking My Soul Somewhere Else ..

And I Started Writing 



" They Say .. It takes A long way to Be a Man ,,

Others Say .. What was before is a past ,, 

Some Say .. It's Never Too Late to Say It ,,

I say ,, I started Believing .. Only A Few Months Ago ,,

That Happiness , Joy and Smiles .. Can be every day's companion ..

With Only One Thing On Your Mind .. The Smile Owner

Till Then .. I Can't Say Much More " 

Let's All Pray For the Wish .. To come TRUE

Saturday, April 05, 2008

I'll Be there .. D Day



Hey all ,,

Tomorrow is the 6th of april .. We shall witness a general strike ( that's what they are calling it )

i will be in midtown for coverage inshallah ,, follow my twitter box for the latest

so .. here are images ( Making ) of the promo i used for that ..

plus .. a video is attached for the final pre render minutes ..









Monday, March 24, 2008

The Elder Ones ..



A few days ago, a friend of mine “Amr” and I were having a conversation about the role of the elders in our society... are they still given the kind of value and respect that is naturally supposed to be given to them ? We got to conclude that they have moved far away and apart from the role they are to be... an example is how they try to control instead of guide and advice... I suppose only a few of them still carry their role of guidance effectively...





Later on that day... on my way to work, I was talking to a college mate in the bus about why was it really the fourth finger where people have their rings placed? Especially for engagement and marriage... he said it was all a tradition and not really any kind of religious practice, it’s just more of a social one, I later asked him, why don't you think of getting engaged on the near term? He got to say that he got much of relationships in the past that kept him far from it... In fact, him saying: " Whenever I had a relationship, my mum would ask me: do you want me to ask the girl for engagement?





Actually, I was amazed about how the elder ones have gone to become just as decorates instead of real figures in some parts of the society, as he “My College mate " concluded it all , his mum role in fact was only to do official roles in things like marriage .. I wonder why most of our young ones now no longer put marriage as something to think of seriously...!


So, what's really the matter with our elder ones? Are they changing to fit in a time which is not theirs? Or are they fading away to the shade to allow the young generation to take place? The answers are yet to be found...

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Couldn't Get A Title ..



I have been pretty down lately from life and people. At times I feel that I cannot control anything in my life anymore. It has been very upsetting and very depressing for me. Out of depression and being sick and tired, I tend to remember the happy times that I had in the past and see if I can turn back time. I have been trying to get in touch with people from the past. Just to say “hey, how are you. Do you still remember me?” Nothing. No replies, nothing. I tried email, and even Facebook. No answer. On Facebook they even removed their accounts and I cannot search for them anymore, or maybe they just blocked me , I don’t know. I don’t understand people anymore and why they hate me so much. Was I ever that bad?





I look at my life now and I can honestly say I am at an all time low. I wish I can just meet new people or try to be more open and have fun in life. I am so scared now a days from talking or trying to interact much with people because I am afraid they will hate me if I said anything. So I just stay quiet and just listen. I don’t know what to do anymore. I think the past haunts me, the present is not a place I want to be in, and I cannot even think of the future anymore.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

I hate you ..



When Life goes to nowhere ..

and you can't get your remaining part ..

Then i have to say .. I hate you..

When i get misunderstood ..

and i turn to be a suspect when am a victim ..

Then i have to say .. I hate you

When i run into nowhere to help someone ..

and they turn their backs off ..





Then i have to say .. I hate you

whether it's someone , somewhere , or anything else .. it doesn't matter

I hate you and i can't believe in anything no more ..

i know i am leaving here in the end .. not ever coming back ..

leaving not just my home ,, my entity , but the whole country ..

with a promise to never ever attempt it again ..

but no retaliation ..

Days will do that instead ..

I Hate you ..

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Freezing !




Freezing Out in Cairo ..

almost 5 Celsius Around Here ..

what makes it more difficult is where i live ..

Its a City with a high altitude .. So temperature Falls Sharply at Night ..

Anyway , With the freezing around , i never forget to get my thoughts cycle going on ..

This post is just a tin tank ,, i.e. nothing much here though ..



With all the cold and freezing atmosphere around ,,

its mid year vacation .. exams are over .. 3 weeks to return back ,

stuck till the teeth in work , and no much time for rest ..

But that doesn't ever give it away ,, for the hopes and dream ..

Coz its never too late :-)
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